Stuck

I can write almost anywhere -strolling through the memorial rose garden on my near daily treks, rinsing  Herbal Essence Long Term Relationship conditioner in my almost daily showers, chopping onions for a salad, sitting on the river bank watching Einstein fly fish. That's when I produce some of my best work.

I write detailed descriptions, raise important questions and reflect on past experiences. Sometimes I am snarky and amusing and other times serious and searching.  My writing is raw and honest and scary and heartbreaking and I often end up with a few tears gliding down my cheeks. My words are larger than life and yet incredibly minute.

I cannot seem to write in the places that matter.  At the keyboard. In my Important Notebook. On a clipboard. I cannot make my words concrete. I'm unable to give meaning to my experiences-my heartaches and my joys.

I am paralyzed by my laptop keyboard, by my Papermate Retractable blue ink pen.

I can't get these words out of my head.

They are stuck and so am I.

Blog-o-lutions

1. Comment more
I spend lots of time reading but not near enough time commenting. Sometimes I feel like I don't have anything to say that hasn't already been said but I vow to share more comment love.

2. Grow my readership
I think it's time to share this baby with people I know IN REAL LIFE. This will be a big step for me.

3. Host a giveaway 
It will probably involve a monkey since I love monkeys and I am momma to 3 monkeys. I promise not to give my children away thru my blog. That could get a little dicey.

4. Keep blogging
I am hoping the coming year brings about many changes...finally selling our house, moving across country, going back to WOH to name a few. I don't want the chaos of life to keep me from writing about it.

5. Paticipate
I want to take part in more writing prompts, link-ups, twitter parties. I want to be more active.

6. Learn
It is no secret that I am severely technically challenged so this will probably be the most difficult one for me. I want and need to learn more about the technical side of this blogging gig.


So  what blogolutions are you making? What do you wish you knew when you first started out?


HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I just can't

I just don't have it in me today. I can't write anything funny or clever or sad or thought provoking. I am in no mood to make a list of any kind...no getting to know me, favorites, stuff I can't believe I said to my kids. Stuff I can't believe they said.

There are scraps of paper in my nightstand, my purse, in the Quest where I jot down brilliant post ideas. Oh yeah, you should probably know that I am extremely modest and hilarious and thought provoking. But mostly modest. I even start writing some of them. Yes WRITING...with  a pencil (must be very sharp) or an ink pen (must be blue). But not today. Today I am in survival mode.

Big Yankee has been gone for 86 days. I can't really think about it because it will swallow me whole, gnaw me into teeny, tiny bits and spit me out. I just go through the motions and hope that something changes soon so that we can get back to some kind of normal life.  A life where I get to live with my husband and see him every day.  A life where my monkeys get to hug and kiss and snuggle Daddy goodnight instead of settling for a phone call.

 A life where we live together.