Thursday, April 19, 2012

Chaos

I am a mess.

A silver ball bouncing around and dinging inside a pinball machine. The lights are too bright, noises too loud, moves are too sudden.

Spinning endlessly and going nowhere.

Shooting violently from one thing to the next.

I start something and get stuck. I walk away and begin another task. 

I am overwhelmed by everything I need to accomplish. My house is a wreck of half started tasks.

Boxes are everywhere. I cannot finish packing the boxes I've started and yet I'm desperate for more boxes so I can pack other stuff.

The contents of my bedroom junk drawers are strewn across the dresser. I spent an hour sorting it all into piles. Running out of room, the piles overflow onto the window seat where they sit for three days.

I get frustrated and disgusted..sweeping everything together and dumping them back into the drawers. It's worse than when I started.

I am engulfed by chaos. I am obsessed with thinking about how much I have to do and how little time I have to do it.

It is suffocating.

I have no illusions of winning this game.

I just want it to be over.
 I linked up with Shell 



11 comments:

christina said...

some of the best $$ spent was during a move when i hired a guy from Craigslist to come in and box crap up for me and haul stuff i wasn't keeping over to the Salvation Army or out to the dumpster.

hang in there. it will be over soon!

Shell said...

I wish I could just leave everything except a few important things and then just buy all new when I move. It seems like it would be simpler. Not cheaper, just simpler. ;)

Kimberly said...

I know it's hard and overwhelming, but soon it will be over.

Jadzia@Toddlerisms said...

Piles of things are the WORST. Nothing makes me crazy faster. Oddly, this is why I enjoy moving, because it's pretty easy for me just to take the stuff and give/donate/toss it. Good luck!

Mommy Inconsistent said...

Moving sucks...but it's a great way to purge, which I kind of suck at. Keep on keeping on and treat yourself to something yummy! Good luck!

Robbie K said...

Thanks! I've been taking a box/bag as I go thru each room to fill with crap I don't need but is good enough to donate. I've been going to Goodwill every few days so it won't pile up.

Robbie K said...

I've fantasized about doing that! I probably have at least 1/2 our stuff already packed but it still overwhelms me.

Robbie K said...

Yes there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for the reminder :)

Robbie K said...

I need a personal organizer..are you available?

Robbie K said...

Part of my problem is that space & storage have never been an issue at our house...so I've held on to way too much stuff. And I suck at purging....

Finders Keepers said...

I'm with you my friend! I packed up my house last summer, thinking it was going to sell...hasn't happened, so I've slowly unpacked random items...my basement, you can't walk in it. Everything is overflowing at my house. Right now I'm in the process of dehoarding, and its torturous to say the least...