Wednesday, June 27, 2012

PYHO: Missing Out

Did you ever have to miss out on "the" party of the year because it was your great aunt twice removed anniversary party? The one you only met once when you were 3 years old so you don't even remember? And you had to spend an entire day and night at the firehouse (because that's where all the BIG events are held) with a bunch of relatives who were pretty much strangers?

I've been feeling that way lately and it bites. I have this job which I'm going to be head over heels in love with once we get our program up and running. Right now I spend 2 days a week in training or recruiting and the rest of the time I work from home..reading curriculum, watching training dvds, learning procedures etc. It's easy-peasy. Very family friendly. Flexible. And it's important work that matters to me.

Yet, I find myself missing time at the virtual water cooler that is Twitter. I'm pissed that another week has gone by and I've missed my favorite link ups. I'm barely responding to comments...and it's taking me way too long to do. I'm not reading as much and definitely not writing. I can barely string a few coherent sentences together. And it's just easier for family harmony if I let the kids use my laptop during the day. And when night rolls around and I finally get the chance I am too damn tired.

And I miss it. I feel like I'm being forced to spend the day with strangers when I would rather be here. I know it's just a phase and soon it will all balance out but right now it bites the big one.



28 comments:

@dkotucker said...

Oh Robbie. Having lived in the same city all my life I can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling.

You have had such a whirlwind couple of months it is no wonder you are feeling out of sorts. Maybe it's the excitement, stress and newness of everything. I know when that happens to me, I sometimes just want to retreat back to what's comfortable. You are going to be amazing at your new job. I can hear it in your writing. Everything will fall into place for you. It will take time but you will get through it because you are a strong, caring and giving person.

My niece coined this "condition" as FOMO aka Fear of Missing Out. This too shall pass my friend.

Hang in there, Diane

Colleen said...

Aw I hope that you find the time for the things you really enjoy again soon. It certainly can be tough when you're trying to balance a lot and have a few different things on the go! Take care and go easy on yourself. :)

Tara R. said...

Hopefully life will settle out soon, and you can re-join your online friends again. I know how agitated I get if I have to go offline for long.

Good luck with your new job.

(visiting via PYHO)

Heather said...

I have definitely been feeling that way so far this summer. It will eventually even out, I hope. Just know that the great thing about online friends is that they don't go away!

Ashley Abele said...

I agree with Heather, online connections stay there! It's so hard when we're forced to spend time where we'd rather not. I hope things improve soon!

The Preppy Girl in Pink said...

We're all here. We come and go but we will always be here. Take some time to settle into your new life. I am actually pulling myself away from the computer to enjoy my summer with the girls and I am loving it. I miss all of my online friends but we can't be two places at once. Love ya!

Shell said...

Life gets in the way of online. A lot. But, it's okay- I think we all understand because we have all been there!

IASoupMama said...

I so agree -- my priorities put the people I love and care for in real life first, then my job, then my paid writing, then my personal writing/blogging. And I get darn cranky when I don't make it to the bottom of that list often enough...

Adrienne said...

It stinks when we feel closed off. This blogging thing is so wonderful and I hate when I feel like I can't get to it.

Robbie K said...

Thank you very much for your kind words and understanding. It is much appreciated. I definitely suffer from FOMO!

Robbie K said...

Thanks for understanding. I feel like my life is so much easier and less stressful in so many ways than it was a few months ago and yet I feel like part of me is missing when I miss out on writing, tweeting etc.

Robbie K said...

Agitated is exactly the way I feel. I hope I get things balanced out soon.

Robbie K said...

Yes I think summer is probably making it seem worse than it is. I use to do my writing during the day (when I only had 1 at home) when his SideKick was over to play.

Robbie K said...

I guess it's b/c my co-workers don't feel like friends yet and it's just not as fun as online :)

Robbie K said...

You're right we can't be two places at once and I need to BE where I am. I'm sure it'll all work out.

Robbie K said...

I wish I didn't miss it so much. Being new in town I have more of a social life and interactions online than I do IRL.

Robbie K said...

cranky and agitated that's me...

Robbie K said...

Yes..closed off is a great description of how it feels...and I don't like it!

Sara S said...

Sometimes life pushes us away from online, I've definitely been there. We miss you but completely understand!

AnnMarie said...

After reading this, I feel even more flattered that we found each other! I know this feeling so well. Summer has been hard to be online and just coming back from a vacation where I couldn't get online made me feel very disconnected.

Kimberly said...

Life gets in the way, but we've been there. We understand and will be here when you're ready!

ateachablemom.com said...

Oh, I get it! I love that you have work you enjoy and that means so much to you AND you love to blog. I also hate it when life gets in the way or I can't get into writing. Ugh!

Robin | Farewell, Stranger said...

I hear you. I feel stuck at work and life just is too busy to get to all the people I want to lately. I'm (ahem) horrible about responding to comments too.

Robbie K said...

Thanks.

Robbie K said...

Yes feeling disconnected makes me crazy. Glad you understand.

Robbie K said...

Thank you. I miss screen life.

Robbie K said...

Thanks for understanding. I miss blogging and connecting.

Robbie K said...

Thank you. it's hard isn't it--being torn in too many directions and not having time for the things you enjoy.