All Things Fadra has brought back Stream of Consciousness Sundays. It's like she KNEW I needed a brain dump. I cannot believe it in 2015. It was a hell of a year and I didn't write much....at least not outside of my head. I am hoping to change that in 2015. I need blogging-for the therapy and the connections. My world is quite noisy and chaotic and it helps me to hammer out some thoughts in black and white at my lovely keyboard. Most of my energy has been funneled into surviving. It takes every ounce and often that is still not enough. This was the first Christmas without my mom and I wasn't able to spend it with my dad or siblings. It is nine days until the anniversary of her death. I have no idea what the hell to do that day...how to get thru it.