Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Blank

I got nuthin'.

I scoured through my 43 unfinished drafts hoping to find inspiration for Pour Your Heart Out. Nothing. Na da. Zero. Zilch.

Since my laptop decided to quit last week it has felt like such a hassle to write. I trudge downstairs to the office out of obligation. I tell StinkBug I'll only be gone  for a few minutes. I distract him with Barnyard-his current favorite movie. I slump into the black chair and breathe a heavy sigh. This writing..it feels like such an imposition on my life right now. And yet without it I feel disconnected-cut off from the world and the people who live inside my computer screen.

Such a minor inconvenience yet it is having a dramatic effect. It's bringing me down. Harshing my mellow. There are days I am barely holding on and it's the writing the reading the Twitter that keeps me hanging on.


16 comments:

The Preppy Girl in Pink said...

So true! Some days it is so hard to find the words but it is the people who read my words that make my days that much better. They will come to you and don't feel so stressed to write every day. We'll all be here when the words come back.

Tara R. said...

I had to send in my laptop for repairs recently. It was gone for almost three weeks. I didn't know what to do with myself. I had our home computer, and my daughter's OLD laptop, but it just wasn't the same. I completely understand your funk.

(visiting via PYHO)

Shell said...

Remember that you don't *have* to post all the time. It's okay to take a break.

Robbie K said...

EXACTLY>>people who read my words that make the day so much better.

Thanks for reading my words and for sharing yours with me!

Robbie K said...

I just got my laptop in September and REALLY started blogging in October so with it out of commission I feel incomplete.

I appreciate your understanding and thanks for the visit.

Robbie K said...

I need to cut myself some slack sometimes but I also feel out of sorts when I don't post/write.

I am so thankful for PYHO link up!

The Bold Blend said...

I don't think I would write at all if I had to do it at our desktop. Hope you can get a new laptop soon!

Jenna said...

*HUG* i hear you with the frustration of not being able to write (writer's block/effort) and write (laptop/time). Im glad youre staying connected thru twitter tho.

Sara S said...

I feel ya! Lately I haven't had anything or any motivation to really sit down and write a post. I have 1 draft. Usually I have a bunch to choose from, a bunch to work with. Lately nothing.

Kimberly said...

I don't post every day and it definitely takes the pressure off.

Mommy Inconsistent said...

I can relate. Sometimes a week will go by when life gets ultra busy...and I miss everybody in the blogging world and feel bad that I've not kept up...oh, the pressure we put on ourselves. We all need to go easy on ourselves.

Robbie K said...

It is horrible! I feel like I am in a little cave cut off from the rest of the world.

Robbie K said...

Thanks for the much needed hug!

Robbie K said...

I don't post daily..or don't really plan to but when I feel like I haven't written in awhile I get crazy! :)

Robbie K said...

Yep...the pressure stinks. WE are harder on ourselves than other people.

Robbie K said...

I have a bunch of drafts..some that are 1 sentence some that are nearly finished but lacking something I can't put my finger on.
Glad to know I am not the only one!