Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Goodbye House

It's our last night in this house.

If I stop to think about it I will burst in to tears.

And I probably won't stop.

I don't want to be here anymore but I don't want to leave.

I just want to be there.

I tell myself it's not "our house" anymore.

It hasn't been for a long time.

Most of our belongings are packed. 

The walls are blank once more.

Memories echo in the emptiness.

Moving.

Moving on.


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30 comments:

Pish Posh said...

Oh good luck Robbie! I didn't realize you were leaving this soon. I'm actually fairly close to you. Remember the tornadoes? So I feel your energy sort of passing me by as you get ready to leave. I know that's a wishy washy thing to say, but I don't know many people in these states out here.

Anyway, as soon as you GET there and unpack a few things, the hurt will end. Goodbyes always hurt. Good things are in store for you. I am excited for you to start anew!!

Jennifer Worrell said...

Wow! I hope your move goes smoothly. I always cry when I change houses. I get so attached to my place...Enjoy your new start!

Your Doctor's Wife said...

Moving is so hard! We tried, but I just couldn't get myself to leave our tiny, little home. I hope you find much happiness, warmth and love in your new home!

Shiftless Mommie said...

I feel like I will have similar feelings when it is time for us to move. As much as we are too big for our little house and it isn't close to my school, I can't imagine being anywhere else yet.

Good luck in your new home!

Just Keepin It Real, Folks! said...

A house is just the walls, but a home is what you make of it with your family, friends and memories. Best wishes making your new house into a wonderful home.

Credence@Toddlerisms said...

Although I swear every time that I will not engage in this ritual, every move for me is an occasion to put The Smiths' "Back to the Old House" on repeat and have a good cry. Good luck with the move!

Stephanie B. @B4Steph said...

Good luck, Robbie. I hope your trip is smooth. Once you walk through the door of your new digs, instant new memory. I look forward to the updates. Wishing you a grand start on your new chapter.

Jack said...

We moved last August. It was time and it was necessary but it felt pretty damn strange to leave.

Missy Olive said...

Good luck!!! Moving is hard but sometimes change is good. Hope it goes well.

The Preppy Girl in Pink said...

Moving on to bigger and better things while all of you are under one roof! Dreams do come true!!

Dawn Beronilla said...

So many emotions come with moving. You were able to bring a lot of those emotions to life for me while I read this.
Great job!
I hope that your move goes well and that it is a smooth transition for you!

Kristin said...

Moving is incredibly stressful, even when you WANT it so badly. I hope you've recovered by now...and I hope you let yourself feel things fully so that you could purge!

Kimberly Speranza said...

Awesome--not that you are grieving (I hate that for you), but that you are expressing your grief. It won't get bottled up and be as significant to your new memories, in your new home. Once the grief has diminished, you will be free to allow new memories to shape. Keep in mind, moving through grief doesn't make you lose the good memories you have there. It just gives space for them shine beautifully. Great writing.

Kristin @ What She Said said...

Moving is always emotional, no matter how badly you want to leave. I loathe the neighborhood in which we live right now with the fiery hot passion of a thousand burning suns, and would love nothing more than to get OUT and downsize to a smaller house in the process - one in which we'd save money on everything from mortgage to heating and cooling. At the same time, though, this is the house we've lived in since we got married. It's the only home my daughter has ever known. And despite feeling trapped in it at the moment, it's a good house. So, I know I'll feel sad when and if (Please God, let it be 'when') the time comes to move.

Good luck to you as you move on to your next home!

Sisterhood of the Sensible Moms said...

Congratulations and sorry. Does that cover that full range? Safe travels. xoxox Ellen

Robbie K said...

I love that you feel my energy :)

You were exactly right-once we said our goodbyes and hit the road the sadness was over and the excitement began.

Robbie K said...

Thanks. our move was full of surprises but we managed. It was so hard to leave our house...nearly 7 years of memories.

Robbie K said...

Thanks for your kind words. Moving is hard but my family will finally be together again-which makes it all worth it.

Robbie K said...

you said it so well-can't imagine being anywhere else. I know in time we will make new memories.

Robbie K said...

Thanks for the well wishes. While I will miss the walls of our old house I will miss the memories that go along with those physical reminders so much more.

Robbie K said...

I'm taking note of that song for our next move. I had a good cry and then moved on b/c what else can I do?

Robbie K said...

Thank you very much for your sweet words. It was a memorable move and I do love our new home..just not the unpacking :)

Robbie K said...

Exactly....when we moved there from the west coast 7 years ago I thought it was going to be our forever home. Very strange indeed.

Robbie K said...

Thanks. These changes are definitely better and all went well though not as planned :)

Robbie K said...

You are so right! i look around and can't believe that we are all together again :)

Robbie K said...

Even though this move has been in the works for a VERY long time I was still a wreck saying goodbye. But then all was well again.

Robbie K said...

Thanks. I think I've recovered now but time will tell. I am definitely excited to be here.

Robbie K said...

Thank you for the wonderful, encouraging words of wisdom...making me teary eyes :)
I needed the reminder that moving on doesn't mean losing memories.

Robbie K said...

There were many times in recent months when I HATED our house b/c it wasn't selling and it was the one thing keeping my family from being together. And even though the neighborhood i once loved had changed for the worse it was still so damn hard to say goodbye.

Robbie K said...

yes...covers it all and thanks!