Sunday, August 5, 2012

Alone

I've never lived alone. EVER. 


I've always had roommates or husbands or children.


It never really occurred to me to live alone. Why in the world would I want to do that?


I'm a people person and it would be so desolate, lonely, forlorn.


It's a strange thing -this single life. The solitude. The quiet. The eerie calm.


I've been living like a bachelor.


The sink is full of dirty dishes.


My shoes kicked off in the hallway.


Empty coke cans are piling up on the coffee table. 


I eat leftover pizza for breakfast and a bowl of popcorn for dinner.


Two days worth of unread newspapers and unopened mail cover the table.


I watch whatever I want on television and don't replace the toilet paper roll.


I sleep in the middle of the bed with no worries about being woken up by someone in the middle of the night.


After the past year of solo parenting and commuter marriage-ing, I've been in desperate need of an escape. 


I need time to do nothing. To do whatever I want. 


To take care of no one. To stay up late and sleep in and take a nap if the mood strikes me. 


To get lost in a book. To window shop. 


It's energizing-this being alone. 


But I wouldn't want to live this way.



14 comments:

carrie said...

I lived alone for about six months, while it was nice to do whatever I pleased I am much happier living with people. I totally get this!

@dkotucker said...

I do love and at times need my alone time to regroup and get refreshed. Like you I know I wouldn't enjoy it nearly as much if it were permanent.

Robbie K said...

I don't know how long I could handle living alone. I am loving my time off but ready for chaos again.

Robbie K said...

Yes it definitely helps me regroup and appreciate things.

Stacie @ Snaps and Bits said...

I can see ignoring most of that, but the toilet paper? Won't that one just come back to bit you? My only alone time once 5 years ago when Rich took the boys to visit the East Coast and I had to work. It was so weird to be in the house by myself!!

The Preppy Girl in Pink said...

I actually liked living alone. I wouldn't want to do it now but when I was in my mid twenties...it was fantastic! Enjoy the alone time. As moms we don't get much of it!! :-)

Kimberly said...

I crave alone time now, but I couldn't live like that if it were permanent, I would feel lost.

Robbie K said...

I only managed to let the toilet paper roll go for about an hour.

Robbie K said...

How long did you live alone? I have a few friends who much prefer living along to having a roomie.

Robbie K said...

I was beyond desperate for alone time but if it was a way of life or even for an extended time I would go nuts.

Alison said...

I've forgotten what it's like to live alone. I do remember thinking at the time - no roommates, this is awesome!

Then my then-boyfriend, now-husband, got me a cat. :)

Jennifer A. Hall said...

I've never lived alone either. My father lives by himself now and I covet his clean and quiet home. But yeah, don't know how long I would be happy with it either.

Robbie K said...

Did he think you were lonely and needed a cat?

Robbie K said...

It's like living a fantasy isn't it? Grass is always greener I suppose.