Wednesday, February 13, 2013


kitchen table littered with this morning's leftovers.

curious George bowl full of Lucky Charms sits untouched. 

a black stapler.

a piece of notebook paper-walmart list carefully written in red by my nine year old.

a black pony tail holder especially for thick hair sits on a lonely Lego valentine written by my five year old.

graph paper detailing MineCraft Skyblock Suvival painstakingly created by my eleven year old.

sitting down at my laptop- a can of coke and a hot pink water bottle on either side.

ringing cell phone.

a number I don't recognize.

her name is Margo she tells me.

she is a bit shocked when I ask her how she is.

people don't do that much anymore I suppose.

it's me who is in for the real shock.

words are fuzzy.

head buzzing.

ears ringing.

underwater in slow motion.

words I recognize but can't put together.

mammogram, abnormalities, density.

more views, ultrasound, radiologist. 

transferred to the receptionist to schedule an appointment.

shaking so hard that my old school spiral bound calender keeps slipping from my fingers.

first available she says.

thursday at 3:30?

can't do it. no one to pick up my children.

friday at 10?


somehow my finger finds the END button.

shaking and sobbing.

it could be nothing.

but what if it isn't?

Linking up with Shell


Michelle said...

omg! I will pray that it is nothing! What a scary time for you!
Prayers and hugs,

Gina said...

Keep breathing. Cross the bridge when you get to it. Prayers sent your way.

Marianne said...

Saying a prayer now.

Robbie K said...

Thank you!

Robbie K said...

That's what I;m trying to could be nothing I try to repeat over and over.

Robbie K said...

Thank you.

Erin said...

sweetie, hold on. I went through this, um, i think 2 years ago or 3? i had ultrasound, mammograms, and then MRI. came back as just "dense breast tissue." i am praying that is all it is. please know you are in my thoughts & prayers. HUGS

Robbie K said...

thanks for your thoughts and sharing your experience. I am usually not one to worry until there is something to worry about but this just steamrolled me.

The Lovely One said...

Oh no! I hope everything turns out ok! Found you on Saturday Sharefest.... keep us updated!

ShaunaQ said...

Hoping and praying everything iS okay! I saw you on SITS and you're recap of that phone call is both devastating and breathtaking.

following you and hoping for a good update!

Robbie K said...

Thank you. I will definitely update as soon as I know anything.

Robbie K said...

Thank you very much. I am hoping for a good update too.

Rachee Fagg said...

Here's to hoping things work out. I will keep you in my thoughts.