Sunday, March 16, 2014

Upside Down

Yesterday I was shocked, bewildered, heartbroken, angry, sad, hurt.

And maybe a bit relieved.

I couldn't believe he said it.

Yet I could not believe it had not been said sooner.

My world has turned upside down.

And yet it isn't much different than it has ever been. 

My eyes swollen, cheeks tear stained, when I showed up at school five minutes later than normal to pick them up.

She noticed. My daughter always does. She no longer asks why. I imagine she assumes I was crying for my mom. It's been seven weeks.

But this time it's different. Four months shy of a fifteen year marriage. 

I don't know how this will end or how I feel about it.


Fritter said...

Oh Robbie! If this means what I think it means, I'm so sorry. I think about you so much- and send you all the strength I can. Please let me know if I can help. Or just reach out to vent. I'm good for that too.

Stephanie @ Life, Unexpectedly said...

Simply sending you all the hugs in this world, Robbie! Let me know if you need to talk!

Robbie K said...

After lots and lots of talking and tears we are in a better place...but still trying to figure out where to go from here. Thanks for your support and hugs!!