Yesterday I was shocked, bewildered, heartbroken, angry, sad, hurt.
And maybe a bit relieved.
I couldn't believe he said it.
Yet I could not believe it had not been said sooner.
My world has turned upside down.
And yet it isn't much different than it has ever been.
My eyes swollen, cheeks tear stained, when I showed up at school five minutes later than normal to pick them up.
She noticed. My daughter always does. She no longer asks why. I imagine she assumes I was crying for my mom. It's been seven weeks.
But this time it's different. Four months shy of a fifteen year marriage.
I don't know how this will end or how I feel about it.