Sunday, January 11, 2015

Stream of Consciousness: Surviving

All Things Fadra has brought back Stream of Consciousness Sundays. It's like she KNEW I needed a brain dump. I cannot believe it in 2015. It was a hell of a year and I didn't write much....at least not outside of my head. I am hoping to change that in 2015. I need blogging-for the therapy and the connections. My world is quite noisy and chaotic and it helps me to hammer out some thoughts in black and white at my lovely keyboard. Most of my energy has been funneled into surviving. It takes every ounce and often that is still not enough. This was the first Christmas without my mom and I wasn't able to spend it with my dad or siblings. It is nine days until the anniversary of her death. I have no idea what the hell to do that day...how to get thru it.

7 comments:

Kendra Frampton said...

Sometimes surviving is just that, surviving. I am sorry about your mom and wish you luck over the next week. Remember the good things and keep moving.

Tamara Camera said...

My mom lost her mom six months ago, and even though her mom was 100 and ready to move on, I still think every day how freakin' hard it must be to lose your mom. I have nightmares about it.

all.things.fadra said...

I guess I have no words of comfort other than to say every year will be different. Hopefully better but definitely different. Keep pushing forward because at least you're moving in the right direction.

Robbie K said...

@Kendra Thank you for your kind words.

Robbie K said...

@Tamara Even though I have been preparing for it for awhile due to her health issues it is still hard as hell--every single day. Nothing prepares you for losing your mom. Will keep your family in my thoughts.

Robbie K said...

@Fadra Thank you. I take comfort in the fact that it also means she has been free of pain for almost a year.

SouthMainMuse said...

Robbie. It is very hard. This New Years Eve was the second anniversary of my father's death. When you feel yourself getting down, think of things to be thankful for -- the years you shared.