Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Heartbreak

When you are five there is just so much of the world that you don't understand.

Tonight you were talking on the phone to Daddy and you started sobbing.

You yelled, "I'm never going to see you again! Don't you know I can't ever see you?"

You threw down the phone, slamming the door as you ran from my bedroom.

You are angry and heartbroken.

Frustrated.

I reached for the phone, a huge lump forming in my throat, tears rolling down my face.

I tried to talk to Daddy but I was sobbing too. I could feel my heart shattering into a million tiny pieces.

It's not fair that you have only lived with Daddy for two of the past twelve months. It's not fair that I can't pick you up, hug you tight and make all the hurt go away.



16 comments:

Jennifer said...

Oh no. Gosh I hope you can sell your house soon.

Robbie K said...

It was one of the VERY worst moments since we fractured our family. Usually I can pull it together and be the patient, consoling momma who says all the right things. Last night I just cried along with him.

The Preppy Girl in Pink said...

I hope the showing today goes well. This is way too hard on all of you! Much love!

SisterSister said...

My heart goes out to your whole family. It's terrible to be seperated from the ones you love and matter most and who love you in return. Good luck on the house situation.

hi from over at Just Write

Robbie K said...

Thanks! They liked the outside but not the inside :(

Robbie K said...

Thank you! I can't wait to find the perfect family for thsi house.

Sara S said...

Hope you can all be together soon!

Mommy Inconsistent said...

Awwww, hard on everyone, but I guess extra hard when you're 5. You seem like a great mom though. Thanks for the visit from the #PYHO!

Robbie K said...

Thanks me too!

Robbie K said...

It is so hard when there is so much he doesn't understand about our crazy life.

Ado @ The Momalog said...

Wow I can't imagine how hard that is for you and especially for your 5 year old. That sucks.

Jamie said...

I have a 5 year old in my house and know he would NOT handle 10 months without Daddy well at all. My heart goes out to you and to him.

Robbie K said...

What really breaks my heart is that since he was 3 1/2 we've been living a fractured life...and not all under the same roof. :(

Robbie K said...

Thank you. StinkBug is VERY close to Daddy b/c they spent tons of time together during his first lay off. Time is such an abstract concept to kids this age whcih makes it even harder.

THE SARCASM GODDESS said...

Oh how sad. For all of you. Wishing things get better soon.

Robbie K said...

Thanks for your kind words. There has to be a light at the end of the tunnel right?